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Time Heals

Too many “I miss yous” from the poems I’ve made and the lines I’ve said
Here I survived without you beside
Those “I miss yous” are no longer feelings
They’re just three little words that I used to cry for
But not anymore.

Truly, time heals.

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Quick Update

WHAT’S NEW

Since I was a dressmaking student when I was in Junior High, I have no idea about our elective in SHS which is Bread and Pastry. Yes, I’m gonna bake! I’ve always wanted to learn how to bake but I didn’t choose that specialization over dressmaking before. I was really passionate in learning more about fashion. But now that I’ve learned so much and I know that I can improve myself through practice and experimenting in sewing (I trust myself so much about garments & designing. *pat on the back*), I am now heading for the kitchen!! I am so ready to bake treats that would surely make mama proud. 😊

 

‘UH-OH’ SITUATION

This is about Mr. Meter. Argh, because I accidentally told his classmate (Kim) that I have a crush in their class. I didn’t tell him that it was ***** because I’m afraid he’ll tell Mr. Meter or their classmates. The problem is, he thought my crush is Roy. But Roy’s not my crush, actually. It’s Roy’s friend!! I think he told Roy that I fancy him (even if I don’t) because I saw him look at me differently and I didn’t like it. What if Mr. Meter feels the same for me but when he knows that it was Roy whom I have a crush with, he’ll stop liking me? Ohh, please not be like that. I have no feelings for Roy and I regret I even told Kim. Haha

Uh-oh. I guess I’m really gonna have to tell Kim about Mr. Meter 😕

 

WHY INACTIVE

Why? It’s no longer summer or vacation here in the Philippines and I’m VERY busy with school! Tons of assignments, reports, tests, projects, activities and outputs that are cominggg and they won’t stop. I am really stressed tbh but I have goals so I’ll stay motivated. But I wish I can be active again here pls pls pls. I miss those times when I can just chill and be carefree but now WHOAH I don’t even know. *exhales depression* I’ll always try to write blog posts more but I don’t know how!  I still have 3 more books to read (waaaaaa!) but I’ll make time for this, maybe not just now because I’m way to busy.

 

FRIENDSHIP

My ex-best friend and I kinda had the “talk” but I still don’t know if I want us again. I don’t know how to trust her anymore. But we’re totally fine now. The little ump is that, I don’t want us to become best friends anymore – friends, yes – but best friends? Nah? Nah. But I think what she knows is we’re still best friends. And that’s a problem.

Now about my Squad (VS Queens), we’re now starting to really get totally sisterssssssssssssss and we’re loving every moment we’re all together – talking or not talking. LOL. I just went to the city with Shie and we went shopping. It was unbelievably fun but we wish Betty and Jean were there with us 💔

That’s the ‘quick’ update 😂 Until my next post! (I wonder when?)

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Did it ever occur to you?

Did it ever occur to you?
If we’d ever be able to talk,
If we’d ever be able to laugh,
If we’d ever be happy
while spending it all together?

Did it ever occur to you?
If we’d ever cry to each other,
If we’d ever have fun like before,
If we’d ever feel like us
while we’re together?

Did it ever occur to you?
Because it did to me.
But I was unsure.
Can I ever trust you again?

Seeing you hurt, in pain and in tears
without anyone to make you feel happy again
breaks my heart into its shatterest
but all you lies suddenly comes back to me.

I want to be your friend again.
I want to continue the promises we made.
I want to be your ‘best’ again,
Now that you’ve lost him and I’ve lost him
But you’ve got him and I’m shattering.

I wish I didn’t plan my future with you.
What am I now without you?
Not only did my dreams crushed,
So did my heart.

But I miss you.

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WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU HAVE HATERS

This post is dedicated to my fab girrrl Jeanie who’s dealing with this kind of matter right now. Cheer up babe!

And also to everyone who wants to know my ways on how to stay happy even if you’re surrounded with haters out there. You guys don’t really deserve to stress a thing over them.

But! this is also for entertainment and information to all of you 😊

 

 

What to do when you have haters:

 

 

Out of nowhere, those “haters” just come out when you least expect it. But if you know that you’re in the right place (if you haven’t done anything wrong), then this post will really help you in dealing with them. Here we go…

 

 

Don’t let them affect you.

 

I mean, don’t be affected. If you know you’ve done nothing wrong to get them to hate you, don’t stress over them. Your time is too precious to just get affected with those people who are probably just seeking for attention. And there are so many reasons to smile about instead of frowning because of them.

 

If there’s a reason why they hate you even when they’ve got no reason to, it just means they’re insecure slash jealous slash envy of you. Is it even your fault that you are you? Really, girl, if you just let them talk the talk and do not care, they’re just gonna tire themselves for nothing. Show them that hating people is pointless by not getting affected at all. But I know deep inside, you’re still hurt even when you deny it. The key is not to show it (don’t cry in public. It’s just babyish.) Just show them that you’re not hurt and be as strong as rock because you are!

 

And if you let them do the boring part (talking nonsense) and they realize that it’s all meaningless to you, they’ll stop. Why would they spend their time on someone who does not even care, right?

 

But, if they try to make it worse than just talking, make your first move: reach out to those adult people who can help (e.g. school principal, guidance councilor, adviser/teacher, parents, guardians, etc.) What’s wrong with asking for help, right? If you feel like you and your friends can handle them, let me tell you that you’re wrong. They can hurt you physically and you can’t get away with that unless you fight back — which is not a good thing to do (and who says you’re gonna win all the time?) because if you do that, all of that ‘not caring at all’ that you did will just be nonsense. Plus, if this gets to the school principal, you’re gonna get involved and that’s a big NO NO. So it’s really important to ask help from an adult especially to those with authority.

 

However, not all cases ends up to that “physical fighting” so you can just forget about that if the “not getting affected” already shood them away. But if your case got into that point, take my advice. There’s nothing wrong with reaching out for help. Think about what’s wrong with it and you’ll end up on nothing. See?

 

I actually thought that adults don’t usually know what to do next because I am a teen. And they’re adults. It’s different and they won’t be able to relate with me. But once I realised that they also experienced being a teen before and they’ve been there and they’ve done that, who knows better now? If you think you’ve had so much struggles in life, they had plentyyyyyyyyy of them and they’ve survived them.

Don’t think for another reason to say no, I’ve got all my reasons 😂 fyi, I won a debate contest against students from a different school last February (with Jeanie!) and trust me, we never run out of reasons 😂

OK. Before this post get even longer, I’ll wrap this already 😛 By the way, if you have questions or clarifications or information that I forgot to talk about regarding this matter, tell me at the comment box below or message me if you want it to be more personal on the contact on the menu 🙂

 

Stop being hateful and just spread love ❤️ Smile before you switch site! Aaaah bye XXXX

 

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Happy First Month 🎉

28th of May 2017

I still remember the feeling when I was writing my first blog post. It was surreal, yet hopeless.

I was so happy that I finally have a blog that I can call my own. But I was hopeless that I’ll even have followers — that I’ll even have readers. I actually thought of deleting my blog after that.

Looking back now, I’m glad I didn’t delete this. Or else, I’d never have a site where I’ll feel like I’m home.

But what if I did? Will I be this happy? No. This blog made me know the “Ryry” I never thought I’d become – a happier me.

A month ago, I thought I’d never see comments in this blog. So I want to acknowledge literally everyone who inspired me into pushing this blog to its initial success:

  • All I wanted was to have a blog. I stayed up all night searching for a free website but I couldn’t find the perfect one. And then I remembered the blog that I’ve read before (hidewaygirl.wordpress.com thanks so much) so I tried wordpress.com very doubtful and anxious. I told myself “You’ll never have a blog. Don’t assume this time or you’ll break your heart again.” But I didn’t listen to myself. Instead, I clicked the write button and the I wrote my very first blog post. And then I told myself “So what if you’ll never have followers? You just want a blog and now that you have one, you can’t demand for more.” because I didn’t want to break my heart.

 

  • Thirstythought (www.kryzuy.com) for being the first one to inspire me to become a blogger.

 

  • ChrissyAdventures for being the first one to leave a comment in this blog. Knowing your opinion about my post really inspired me to write more.

Now I’m smiling

 

  • To the amazing amazing people who constantly like my posts and binge into reading my posts and to the wonderful people who leave comment(s) in my posts. I know ya’ll are unaware of how much I value you: artgalblog, Clare Cramphorn, Just Betty, Cristian Mihai, ChrissyAdventures, Elm, Ella, freckledfacegirlblog, blacksans101, Mia, Chris Nicholas, darleneguerra, Linda, Little Fears, flawed_silence & Monika. You guys are truly amazing.

 

  • And to all my super cool followers, I don’t know why you follow me but Thank you so much. You make me so happy every time I wake up in the morning.

 

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This is juts my first month. What about the second? The third? The first year? I guess we’re all gonna figure that out when the time comes. But for now, this is me sending all my love to all of you.

Some of you may think of this as a very little thing to celebrate about, but having a blog has been one of my biggest dreams. And now that I have one, can you blame me if I can’t contain my happiness? 😉

Shoutout to all like me 😊

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To the M***** I Loved:

What do I miss? Looking in your beautiful eyes as it stares right back at mine. Do you even miss that? I know you don’t; you never knew me and I never knew you.

At night, I still feel your arms holding me tightly. I can still feel your breathing. You showed me the most honest smile that makes me happy more than anything. I wish it was all real. But it was all just in my imagination, so what can I do?

Call me stupid for falling in love with you. But I’d never consider love as stupid. Wanting to be happy isn’t stupid, even though it breaks your heart in the end.

It broke my heart in the end.

I just hope that one day, our paths will cross and you’ll remember me. I’m the girl from the mystery of your dreams who loves you so dearly. I really hope my prayers came true that even only in your dreams, you somehow knew me.

And I’d be happy.

 

Love, your Mary

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What happened today?

OKAY, OKAY.

My life is really not that interesting and adventurous (I wish it was though) but today wasn’t a bad hair day so I feel like sharing things right now. heehee

So, I stayed up til 2 am watching Mr. Celebrity’s interviews on youtube (I know I swore I’m never gonna google him but now look, I’m youtubing him! 😭) This is how things turned out with my sleepy head:

  • I woke up at 6 am. (4 hours of sleep ugh) I’m definitely crossing things out on my to do list 😒

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I planned that I’m gonna go to school early so I can print my school report but I ended up going to school exactly when the bell rang so my plan didn’t work, yet again. So before class, I tried going to every place at school where I know I can print my report but everyone’s busy so I can’t! So minutes before my presentation, I ran outside the campus to find a computer shop but before that, I tried hard convincing our school guard to let me out the campus. When I got back to my classroom, they were all waiting for me so I had no choice but to go in front and talk in a businesslike tone with my face all haggard. (But I was happy because I still pulled it off.)

  • During Science, I was SO sleepy. I really regret staying up so late just because of those videos 😦 But can you blame me if my energy comes out at night and not in the morning? I don’t know why but my energy level during the day is not as high as my energy level during the night.

 

  • Since I am in SHS, I can’t join the majorette anymore. I really miss the girls, though. I’m really gonna miss doing crazy things with the squad. So, this new majorette member is gonna buy my uniform. It was fine with me because I’ll have money! But by the time I was handing her my uniform, I felt like crying. I didn’t wanna give it. It’s a part of me. My 10th Grade was beautiful because of joining majorette and I felt bad selling my uniform and gold boots 💔 Actually, I didn’t sell my baton 😛 It’s still staying in my room safe and sound because I’d give up anything except for it. My reason is, I don’t want to forget how to twirl a baton so I think that’s already acceptable. (I actually avoided the girl during dismissal because I’m afraid she’ll ask me about the baton. No way.)

 

  • As you see, things haven’t been so good to me but it all changed this time. It’s because of Mr. Meter!! (You probably know him if you’ve read my posts before) I just saw him look my way before he left. And I was so kiligggg!

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I finally had an eye contact with him again! I miss looking at his eyes. You know, we danced last prom and I still remember the way he smiled at me, the way he looked me in the eyes and the way he intertwined his fingers with mine 💘 It was sooo magical.

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It was not a very good day for me but I won’t ever call it a “bad hair day”. I loved every single part of it because I’ve learned a simple lesson in every situation. For example:

  1. I’ll never stay up so late again because of watching his videos. Especially if it’s school day tomorrow.
  2. I should learn how to let go of things specially when other people need it more than I do. (But still keep a single remembrance ✌️)
  3. And lastly, try controlling my excitement when I catch Mr. Meter looking at me because I’m 80% sure he saw me run after that scenario. (ew embarrassing)

That’s it for now. Thanks for reading !

Ryry x