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Quick Update

WHAT’S NEW

Since I was a dressmaking student when I was in Junior High, I have no idea about our elective in SHS which is Bread and Pastry. Yes, I’m gonna bake! I’ve always wanted to learn how to bake but I didn’t choose that specialization over dressmaking before. I was really passionate in learning more about fashion. But now that I’ve learned so much and I know that I can improve myself through practice and experimenting in sewing (I trust myself so much about garments & designing. *pat on the back*), I am now heading for the kitchen!! I am so ready to bake treats that would surely make mama proud. 😊

 

‘UH-OH’ SITUATION

This is about Mr. Meter. Argh, because I accidentally told his classmate (Kim) that I have a crush in their class. I didn’t tell him that it was ***** because I’m afraid he’ll tell Mr. Meter or their classmates. The problem is, he thought my crush is Roy. But Roy’s not my crush, actually. It’s Roy’s friend!! I think he told Roy that I fancy him (even if I don’t) because I saw him look at me differently and I didn’t like it. What if Mr. Meter feels the same for me but when he knows that it was Roy whom I have a crush with, he’ll stop liking me? Ohh, please not be like that. I have no feelings for Roy and I regret I even told Kim. Haha

Uh-oh. I guess I’m really gonna have to tell Kim about Mr. Meter 😕

 

WHY INACTIVE

Why? It’s no longer summer or vacation here in the Philippines and I’m VERY busy with school! Tons of assignments, reports, tests, projects, activities and outputs that are cominggg and they won’t stop. I am really stressed tbh but I have goals so I’ll stay motivated. But I wish I can be active again here pls pls pls. I miss those times when I can just chill and be carefree but now WHOAH I don’t even know. *exhales depression* I’ll always try to write blog posts more but I don’t know how!  I still have 3 more books to read (waaaaaa!) but I’ll make time for this, maybe not just now because I’m way to busy.

 

FRIENDSHIP

My ex-best friend and I kinda had the “talk” but I still don’t know if I want us again. I don’t know how to trust her anymore. But we’re totally fine now. The little ump is that, I don’t want us to become best friends anymore – friends, yes – but best friends? Nah? Nah. But I think what she knows is we’re still best friends. And that’s a problem.

Now about my Squad (VS Queens), we’re now starting to really get totally sisterssssssssssssss and we’re loving every moment we’re all together – talking or not talking. LOL. I just went to the city with Shie and we went shopping. It was unbelievably fun but we wish Betty and Jean were there with us 💔

That’s the ‘quick’ update 😂 Until my next post! (I wonder when?)

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Happy First Month 🎉

28th of May 2017

I still remember the feeling when I was writing my first blog post. It was surreal, yet hopeless.

I was so happy that I finally have a blog that I can call my own. But I was hopeless that I’ll even have followers — that I’ll even have readers. I actually thought of deleting my blog after that.

Looking back now, I’m glad I didn’t delete this. Or else, I’d never have a site where I’ll feel like I’m home.

But what if I did? Will I be this happy? No. This blog made me know the “Ryry” I never thought I’d become – a happier me.

A month ago, I thought I’d never see comments in this blog. So I want to acknowledge literally everyone who inspired me into pushing this blog to its initial success:

  • All I wanted was to have a blog. I stayed up all night searching for a free website but I couldn’t find the perfect one. And then I remembered the blog that I’ve read before (hidewaygirl.wordpress.com thanks so much) so I tried wordpress.com very doubtful and anxious. I told myself “You’ll never have a blog. Don’t assume this time or you’ll break your heart again.” But I didn’t listen to myself. Instead, I clicked the write button and the I wrote my very first blog post. And then I told myself “So what if you’ll never have followers? You just want a blog and now that you have one, you can’t demand for more.” because I didn’t want to break my heart.

 

  • Thirstythought (www.kryzuy.com) for being the first one to inspire me to become a blogger.

 

  • ChrissyAdventures for being the first one to leave a comment in this blog. Knowing your opinion about my post really inspired me to write more.

Now I’m smiling

 

  • To the amazing amazing people who constantly like my posts and binge into reading my posts and to the wonderful people who leave comment(s) in my posts. I know ya’ll are unaware of how much I value you: artgalblog, Clare Cramphorn, Just Betty, Cristian Mihai, ChrissyAdventures, Elm, Ella, freckledfacegirlblog, blacksans101, Mia, Chris Nicholas, darleneguerra, Linda, Little Fears, flawed_silence & Monika. You guys are truly amazing.

 

  • And to all my super cool followers, I don’t know why you follow me but Thank you so much. You make me so happy every time I wake up in the morning.

 

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This is juts my first month. What about the second? The third? The first year? I guess we’re all gonna figure that out when the time comes. But for now, this is me sending all my love to all of you.

Some of you may think of this as a very little thing to celebrate about, but having a blog has been one of my biggest dreams. And now that I have one, can you blame me if I can’t contain my happiness? 😉

Shoutout to all like me 😊

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What happened today?

OKAY, OKAY.

My life is really not that interesting and adventurous (I wish it was though) but today wasn’t a bad hair day so I feel like sharing things right now. heehee

So, I stayed up til 2 am watching Mr. Celebrity’s interviews on youtube (I know I swore I’m never gonna google him but now look, I’m youtubing him! 😭) This is how things turned out with my sleepy head:

  • I woke up at 6 am. (4 hours of sleep ugh) I’m definitely crossing things out on my to do list 😒

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I planned that I’m gonna go to school early so I can print my school report but I ended up going to school exactly when the bell rang so my plan didn’t work, yet again. So before class, I tried going to every place at school where I know I can print my report but everyone’s busy so I can’t! So minutes before my presentation, I ran outside the campus to find a computer shop but before that, I tried hard convincing our school guard to let me out the campus. When I got back to my classroom, they were all waiting for me so I had no choice but to go in front and talk in a businesslike tone with my face all haggard. (But I was happy because I still pulled it off.)

  • During Science, I was SO sleepy. I really regret staying up so late just because of those videos 😦 But can you blame me if my energy comes out at night and not in the morning? I don’t know why but my energy level during the day is not as high as my energy level during the night.

 

  • Since I am in SHS, I can’t join the majorette anymore. I really miss the girls, though. I’m really gonna miss doing crazy things with the squad. So, this new majorette member is gonna buy my uniform. It was fine with me because I’ll have money! But by the time I was handing her my uniform, I felt like crying. I didn’t wanna give it. It’s a part of me. My 10th Grade was beautiful because of joining majorette and I felt bad selling my uniform and gold boots 💔 Actually, I didn’t sell my baton 😛 It’s still staying in my room safe and sound because I’d give up anything except for it. My reason is, I don’t want to forget how to twirl a baton so I think that’s already acceptable. (I actually avoided the girl during dismissal because I’m afraid she’ll ask me about the baton. No way.)

 

  • As you see, things haven’t been so good to me but it all changed this time. It’s because of Mr. Meter!! (You probably know him if you’ve read my posts before) I just saw him look my way before he left. And I was so kiligggg!

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I finally had an eye contact with him again! I miss looking at his eyes. You know, we danced last prom and I still remember the way he smiled at me, the way he looked me in the eyes and the way he intertwined his fingers with mine 💘 It was sooo magical.

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It was not a very good day for me but I won’t ever call it a “bad hair day”. I loved every single part of it because I’ve learned a simple lesson in every situation. For example:

  1. I’ll never stay up so late again because of watching his videos. Especially if it’s school day tomorrow.
  2. I should learn how to let go of things specially when other people need it more than I do. (But still keep a single remembrance ✌️)
  3. And lastly, try controlling my excitement when I catch Mr. Meter looking at me because I’m 80% sure he saw me run after that scenario. (ew embarrassing)

That’s it for now. Thanks for reading !

Ryry x

 

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To my real Superman 👨

I wasn’t the best daughter in the world.

I was never the type who would always listen to what you say. I know I made mistakes and I sometimes make you mad but you never changed.

You’ll never change for me.

You are my favorite person in the world. I know I am yours too. 🙂 I love you more than I love anybody. No one really understands me the way you do. So I am really thankful that I have you. (Idk why this rhymes 🙄)

It’s so hard to live a day without you waking up in the morning. I know you have to leave for work and I only get to see you a few times a year. It’s really hard especially when your the only member of the family who allies with me. I just don’t let you guys know that I cry every time you leave. Because it means that I’m alone again and that I’m never going to do good again.

My best was never good enough for them.

But for you, even my little work makes you happy. You give me an incentive even if I don’t ask for it 😁. You make me feel like I can do good things, too. That I’m not just a burden and that I’m important too.

I don’t know why even you’re a guy, you understand that I want to be like this or like that and you never stopped me from doing what I love, especially in pursuing my dreams. You don’t get mad at me when I tell you that I want to perform all over the world, model during summer, to buy me shoes like this or this kind of gadget. You get me. You just do and I feel so lucky knowing that there is actually someone who would use an overtime in his job just to make sure that he’s gonna get me the stuff I told him to buy for me.

You always cared for me. You didn’t see me grow but I swear I am me because I have you. (ew i’m crying) I wish I could’ve spent more time with you. I want to be with you but I can’t. Thank you for making me more mature by leaving me this way. Because every time you leave, my goal is to be a better daughter when you get back.

You really are my superman. I wouldn’t survive all the bumps in my life if you weren’t there to assure me that I’m going to be fine.

I really wish you didn’t have to leave so I can be happy each day. But I’m going to promise that I will stay the same and I will be your “panene” forever and always.

I love you, Papa! My superman, my daddy, my pops, my tatay, my ama, my amazing ally, my inspiration, my everything ❤️

Happy Fathers’ Day to all Dads around the world 💞