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Thoughts behind my Silhouette

I can see my silhouette on the ground
Nothing to light me up but the moon
No stars are visible
This pain is inevitable
There is no trace of happiness
Just fear, loathe, and regret
I wish I didn’t love you
And the stars came out for me
I wish I could forget
Like how easily you turn it all to waste
I miss me
Please stop breaking my heart

This silence is so loud
I tried to speak but voice doesn’t come out
My heart’s whining inside
My feelings are to subside
But I keep on coming back
Through this rope that I still hold on to
Both ends of this tag of war is you
I have nowhere to go
Just worse memories and worst memories
Sickness rushes inside of me
I wish you had never looked me that way
So I shouldn’t have caught your eyes
That made me stay
Time has passed and what I only see
The silhouette on the ground is me

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Did it ever occur to you?

Did it ever occur to you?
If we’d ever be able to talk,
If we’d ever be able to laugh,
If we’d ever be happy
while spending it all together?

Did it ever occur to you?
If we’d ever cry to each other,
If we’d ever have fun like before,
If we’d ever feel like us
while we’re together?

Did it ever occur to you?
Because it did to me.
But I was unsure.
Can I ever trust you again?

Seeing you hurt, in pain and in tears
without anyone to make you feel happy again
breaks my heart into its shatterest
but all you lies suddenly comes back to me.

I want to be your friend again.
I want to continue the promises we made.
I want to be your ‘best’ again,
Now that you’ve lost him and I’ve lost him
But you’ve got him and I’m shattering.

I wish I didn’t plan my future with you.
What am I now without you?
Not only did my dreams crushed,
So did my heart.

But I miss you.

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What a Girl’s Morning Should Be

Open your eyes,
Let the rays of sunshine
get in your sight.
The heat of happiness
longs for your embrace
Smile for today, it’s a lovely day.

 

Break free, be free.
Let your hair fly
as it cuddles the warm air.
Pour yourself a drink
and let your troubles sink.
No problems for today, it’s a lovely day.

 

Dance around the kitchen,
Let your voice sing the sound of glee
as it carries the grief out the window.
You deserve to be happy.
Blow a kiss in front of the mirror.
It’s a brand new day, a lovely day.

 

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The photo version of this will be posted next!
Watch out xxx

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I wish it could just be that easy

I wish it could just be that easy
But it’s not.
The pain you’ve caused me
It’s more that all the heartbreaks I’ve had put altogether
I wish moving on could just be that easy.

I wish it could just be that easy
But it’s not.
The memories we wasted
It’s no longer beautiful like how it was before.
The dreams we crushed
It’s just not the same anymore.
I wish forgetting could just be that easy.

I wish it could just be that easy
But it’s not.
The friendship that we had
From the promises wh made to the lies you made me believe in.
I wish forgiving could just be that easy.

I wish it could just be that easy
But it’s not.
The words you said
They are like sound of silence passing through my ears
The trust I gave
It’s slowly shattering like my emotions inside
I wish trusting again could just be that easy

But it’s not.