So, you guys know that fangirling made my heart broken.
So I decided to stop. Or at least limit my fan girling.
I talked to myself to remind me not to be too excited about my Mr. Celebrities again and I understood everything I told myself. But..
Two days later, I heard this song. I fell in love with the voice of the singer. So I googled him. (Oh no)
1 hour later, I was fangriling again.
My expectation: 😀😃😄😁☺️😊😇🙂😉😌😙❤️ (calm fangirling)
Reality: 😁😆😂🤣😍😚😋😜😝😛🤗😖😫😩😤😯😧😮😲😵😱🤤😬😭💘 (over fangirling)
Oh no, oh no. What can I do? I just can’t stop. I’ve been fangirling all my life & it’s just so hard to eventually stop.
My solution? Since the internet is the only way I can connect with my Mr. Celebrity, I finally decided to refrain from googling him. In that way, I won’t ever know if he has a girl friend which will break my heart again. My only problem is, controlling my thoughts. What if I created a new world again? (Oh God, I hate that idea.)
That, I don’t know. Maybe I just have to keep myself busy so crazy thoughts will not flood my mind. Yes, that might work.
Just so you know, I downloaded some pictures of him when I first googled him. But I think that’s already enough. I’ve learned a lesson before and now I’m applying that lesson for a better fangirling outcome.
And for some reason, I have Mr. Meter and Mr. Rose to go kilig over instead of Mr. Celebrity #1 and #2 right? 😍
I’ll keep you updated 😊
(And p.s. I promise not to cry at night anymore because Mr. Celebrity #1 is dating)